Day 30 of 30
Day 30 of 30
Holy moly. 30 days ago I started an experiment… Having gained 50 lbs, my body felt unfamiliar to the point where I’d been hiding big time. As I set out to create my new year’s resolutions, a voice told me I couldn’t reach any of those without SEEING, ACKNOWLEDGING & even - oh my god media forbid - LOVING my body, just as it is, first.
So here we are… day 30. I am changed & I am the same.
Overarching thoughts from these 30 days…
💕Staying consistent with an action for 30 days is HARD AF
💕Committing to photos + a soul-filled caption every night took up a lot of time and energy. I also feel it has taken the time I usually allot to getting projects done extra quickly. I usually return photo projects in super human time… this month there hasn’t been time in the evenings to get ahead.
💕I wondered if it was weird not to show much skin on day 30… but I chose to wear what felt good today (I was puffy & freezing)
💕@aerie reached out to me today & I am OVER THE MOON to have a discussion with them about a partnership. I admire & adore their brand so much… I mean, they’ve been retouch free since 2014… I DIG IT
💕I was asking for a sign from God, spirit, universe (whatever you call your higher power if you believe in one) and the message from aerie honestly felt like it…
💕I’m still unsure exactly how I’ll continue this experiment & work, but I can tell you - this does not end today!
💕On top of that, Wilhelm & I have decided to try a new experiment every month in 2019… we’ll announce the next one tomorrow!
💕Okay, I can’t believe this… but this is the end of day 30 - the official conclusion of this experiment…
I am changed.
I love myself.
I DIG my body… it’s beautiful.
My rolls don’t disgust me - they are me.
My clothes feel so good.
My heart breaks for former me.
My heart breaks for others.
I’m excited for my future!
I’m excited for YOUR future!
I feel activated.
I am an activist.
I have rebelled against the standards that tell me to hate myself and it feel DAMN GOOD.
If you’re still reading this, T H A N K Y O U. This experiment has transformed my life, and YOU have been a huge part of that. I’m eternally grateful.